So here I am home alone with about an hour before the gang comes home from Church. Well my teeth were pulled on Friday, today being the 7^th of November.

I really don't feel as much pain as I feared I would. Maybe when they pulled my teeth previously some of the nerves were killed and that's why I don't feel it like I thought I would. I talk kind of funny with a lisp though. I just ate some pudding and then made myself some cheese melted sandwich stuff. I must be needing some protein, since now my craving for that is gone. I don't know what I will do with this writing. I just had some time I guess.

I am so frustrated about work though. I still have not been appointed yet, so I kind of feel goofy trying to set up appointments and do marketing surveys if I then can't turn around and actually help people if I was then able to do. I hope that the change or switchover happens quickly, because it's either that, or looking for another job, or going on unemployment or something like that. At least Tina is a sales wiz, and therefore we haven't had to declare bankruptcy.

As far as faith goes, I guess I need to have some more. I believe in God, and I believe that he will help me. I also believe that TSCC is much more of a hindrance most of the time to belief in God, than an actual aid to belief in Him. After years of study I have come more to the conclusion that TCOJCOLDS is a man made church much like any other, and there is a good bet that I am closer to God than Monson is, sorry to say. I still try to glean what spiritual stuff I can though from it and don't mind reading the scriptures, though keeping in mind that they may or may not have been inspired. I guess I have to find my own inspiration within myself and follow natural laws. Basically if I want something, I have to follow the path will lead to the results I want. Though I probably 'could' have gone to church, getting a break from it can be a good thing now and again. Gives me time to get spiritual and meditate in my own way.

Maybe I will start writing Steve's book of Morals and thoughts on the idea of God or something.